The Girton Poetry Group

Not Averse

Concordance

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t.  Each tear was worth the glor- // //
y of the find in the name of God for the sake of gold.  They mock- //
s.  Tears would pay for the glor- // //
y of the find in the name of God for the sake of gold.  They mock // /
the brightest ripest ones, // // takes
yard eggs, flour, fruit of the citronnier // // and bakes a tarte au
// it pulls the final prop.  A hundred
yards // // of man’s best effort at defence // // drops thirty feet
willow // // In June he lay among the
yarrow // // Pollen gilding him with yellow // // Yellow crowning hi
sh tango // // to the ship’s pitch and
yaw , // // borrowed eyes seeing // // some earlier draft of things,
he drilling bell // // And stretch and
yawn and kiss me.  All is well.  // //
all Particles in the Small Hours // //
Yawn , // // Dawn // // Five o nine, // // Swiss time; // // An acc
e in its this— // // is-my-beloved-son
yawn .  // // Warm flesh through feathers pressed // // like a sponge-
[Oh work] // // “Oh work, // //
ye fill the night; // // Oh time; // // ye slip, slip, slip away, //
fill the night; // // Oh time; // //
ye slip, slip, slip away, // // Slipping slipping, slip!  // // Slipp
I use humour—I’m used to humour.  // //
Yeah .  Drink water?  // // Can’t drink anything without it.  // // You
/ and she would have been, what, eight? 
yeah , eight.  // // Looking back, it’s flown by.  On his 13th birthday
t doesn’t feel like home anymore // //
yeah , tell me about it, but just don’t tell me she was raped by a swan
hat I’m under:  // // Meals: fourteen a
year —all frozen (by fear)— // // But the service gets slow when it bl
// // It may be the coldest day of the
year // // but no Murder of absurd black penguins // // congregate t
Gaza Sequence // // New
Year .  Gaza, 2009 // // The tank commander, aiming well, // // Took o
ucers’ x-ray-burning to my five- // //
year infant guilt.  Fruitless to plead my case // // into that microph
g.  // // Seeming deathless, // // The
year is born again.  The festival // // Of a boy-king // // Is but on
g // // Is but one of many.  // // The
year is born again.  The festival // // Seeking the return of the ligh
// There will come a time when the new
year is held back, firm by the wrist.  // // // // And, lover, consi
black-stoppered oil caster.  // // The
year is nineteen fifty-five; // // The man, Bologna’s drawing-master.
wilds of the Irish Sea, // // the new
year is sleeping within // // cyclizine dreams, // // and I am remin
er // // Berkshire, 1962-3 // // This
year it snows on Boxing Day.  // // The country road not cleared for d
he flickering light.  // // Nearly-five-
year -old Colin // // needed a lavatory, and I had to leave the fire f
/ // 222 deaths in Cambridgeshire last
year .  // // People finding their way home.  // // People leaning agai
Interval // // There is a forty-one
year tale to tell // // —could I but find the words to make it plain.
make their nil capture.  // // For this
year there’s no nil return.  // // Nil Return // // While the nilherd
that photo remained through // // the
year .  You tell me my honey hair is darker now, and my eyes are a deepe
// Like blood, that I pine for you, and
yearn for you, // // And can taste this longing in the back of my mou
, left untended // // for maybe thirty
years .  A winding path // // leads from the glazed back door // // t
// That might have saved you all those
years ago.  // // Conserved and published, now at last you know // //
old outside.  // // (But that was forty
years ago // // —these days his hair is white all through.) // // ‘E
just mean that in my current state, 19
years and // // Not enough months to make a difference old, // // I
nto its glow.  // // Another twenty one
years , // // another crematorium.  // // This time Judith has chosen
/ All before.  Even now, after all these
years apart, // // I can look inside, and find you here, // // Like
/ crops are watered.  // // Seasons and
years are counted and timed.  // // Philosophies are aired, // // tem
relinquish, // // To let go of leaden
years as though a mouthful of smoke, // // To find new ways to no lon
[At the coinciding point of the
years ] // // At the coinciding point of the years // // Where minute
is conversation with myself.  // // For
years —for, rather, rare nights between inky uterine nights—I’d dream: 
// On the festival of Ferragosto // //
Years from that night // // Fireworks like a Pollock painting // //
the thunderstorm struck the sea // //
Years from that night // // On a promontory we watched // // As the
ed and measured mass // // Ten billion
years from this.  Yet few’ll then know, // // Or knowing grasp, those
Sijo // // // // Lover, the
years have fine timing, or fine luck, I’ve noticed: // // an old one
y strays // // Through the hollows the
years have worn away.  // //
kshelf // // what remains // // three
years in boxes.  // // I want to take this moment and fossilise it.  //
// and talked to relatives not seen for
years .  // // It had to be, but it was not the memory we needed.  // /
ping taxi, // // Filled that space for
years —It makes no sound as it drops.  // // I replay too detailed memo
a brother, and a place to talk.  // //
Years later we went back and made the same unchartered // // trip, re
heat upon my face.  // // Twenty three
years later, when my mother died // // we had the proper formal funer
he meant it to.  // // And he has some
years left in him yet.  // // This man, at least, has nothing to be as
ts the way it should. // // resent the
years of careful compromise, // // the hours spent washing bathroom t
dependency on // // Your voice, all 25
years of me dissolving into the bed, // // The stain anxiety leaves,
ey simmered down when he was about five
years old, // // and she would have been, what, eight? yeah, eight.  /
f wound, // // Kid: you’re twenty-four
years old.  // // Get over it.  You swim or you drown, // // Kid.  She
[I am almost 25
years old] // // I am almost 25 years old.  I cannot remember a time /
ost 25 years old] // // I am almost 25
years old.  I cannot remember a time // // When I didn’t feel, beneath
// And me realising that he was three
years older than me when his mother died, // // That there’s still so
/ The ‘women’s college’ where the third
years saw // // They had just funds enough to pay and brought you her
aken root, // // Those drawings I made
years since // // Of shapes pinnate and toothed, // // Like a hand,
] // // At the coinciding point of the
years // // Where minutes, hours, and days run not to time // // But
now for more // // than three fraught
years – with bitterness and bile // // sieved through our shared blue
u before.  // // I could stay a hundred
years // // With this aura of warmth // // Its amber hues remind me
ed and masked in paint?  // // How many
years your kohl eyes must have stared // // Watching new generations
er, for Blair is here.  // // After two
years ’ pay, this is the day // // He finally comes to Gaza (with chum
I bet I’d get more dates // // Than WB
Yeats // // For all his talk of old men’s lust and rage.  // // I’ve
nd the twinkling guitar riff // // and
yell my apologies instead of typing // // and deleting, admit my ugly
the railroad crossing // // the driver
yelled ‘quiet’ // // we kept on talking // // I noticed the sign sai
ame.  The city is a puddle of glistening
yellow and grey, // // and everybody has wolf-eyes in the rain.  Their
// // Until your notes covered it like
yellow bricks.  // //
Crossing // // “the
yellow bus had stopped // // at the railroad crossing // // the driv
/ // As the tree drops its leaves like
yellow coin:  // //             NOW // // and   NOW // //    and  O
/ Pollen gilding him with yellow // //
Yellow crowning him with grace.  // // He lay there till the grass gre
home.  // // Red, white.  Red, white.  A
yellow glare: // // 222 deaths in Cambridgeshire last year.  // // Pe
s still dis-leave.  Pale envy-green, wet-
yellow , gold-wrought // // Over-thought in the tail-end; by day at po
Of souvenir china:  // // The white and
yellow honey-pot // // With matching spoon; // // The miniature tea
a generation // // Framed by the dusty
yellow // // Of that marvellous invention, // // The post-it note //
kling the clouds // // And the saffron-
yellow orbs of our mango tree // // Dangling by such slender stalks f
Bright, Pale
Yellow // // Our house is in darkness.  // // I shut my eyes, but //
t alone // // As streetlights guide my
yellow path:  // // Your silhouette stands beyond their glow.  // // R
t was me.  // // In an old book I see a
yellow square, read the part // // marked, and am amazed at my predic
tree // // ablaze with fragrant lemon-
yellow suns, // // and, picking four of the brightest ripest ones, //
ds are glowing with // // bright, pale
yellow , // // the kind that shines through your // // skin in the su
e vellum, // // Us in the warm, in the
yellow , // // The outside plumbing blues and blacks.  // // Damp lime
hite lights against // // bright, pale
yellow , // // the same branches that // // during the days are // /
nces, yeses, and the mystery of mustard
yellow tights.  // // My bursting flight of spotlit laughing on the pa
d turn, // // The startling chartreuse
yellow , // // Translucent as childhood fever // // Which once spelle
he sun sits sessile— // // The sand is
yellow —until it is grey— // // The sea brims until it breaks— // //
ded wonders from a bygone age // // Of
yellow Victorian tobacco-stains upon the creamy-white // // Bernard S
e yarrow // // Pollen gilding him with
yellow // // Yellow crowning him with grace.  // // He lay there till
f the house on the corner, madly // //
yellowed and drastic; there’s a word // // for the desire to look in
     that holds no        for me // //
yes // //
  // // Is that the end?  // //
Yes . // //
o disagrees with an impenetrable stare,
yes a million times yes I declare!  // // Thus the sonnets of Shakespe
n // // And somewhere someone’s saying
yes .  // // Even the plane tree’s drop-earrings // // Have almost rea
taste it anymore.  // // Let’s see, ah
yes , here we are: // // three recipes for Prometheus (a lá Kafka) //
impenetrable stare, yes a million times
yes I declare!  // // Thus the sonnets of Shakespeare will forevermore
// //   // // The moon?  // //
Yes .  I just pulled it out of the sky—it’s easier than it sounds—and I
//   // // You were king?  // //
Yes , I was.  I was there with my crown pulled tightly over my ears, and
Anticipation // //
Yes , there will be more.  // // More hills, dales, crags, beaches //
// what is buried well inside.  // //
Yes , this is where I hide— // // and you can look for me forever //
// // charitable, // // sad.  // // ‘
Yes ,’ I thought, ‘nothing ever // // changes.’  I wondered // // if s
h to fill my happiness?  // // Glances,
yeses , and the mystery of mustard yellow tights.  // // My bursting fl
secting tables’, as it were.  // // But
yesterday , waking early, I observed // // open-a-fraction doors, down
ine dreams, // // and I am reminded of
yesterday’s wonder: // // a chorus of whispers painted on // // the
snake’s tongue.  // // But her stylish-
yet -affordable boots // // Do sometimes quake.  // // Her high school
, // // because let’s not go home just
yet , all right?  // //
s still left locked // // anything not
yet broken, so tell me // // contrary poltergeist what is it you //
s been fixed, and focuses below, // //
yet diurnal as a druid, one drinks from the Sun.  // // Threaded with
die here.  // // I know.  // // But not
yet .  // // Each step is pain // // With wings too heavy to fly //
ass // // Ten billion years from this. 
Yet few’ll then know, // // Or knowing grasp, those glaciers of flame
w than in your entirety.  // // You may
yet grow to resemble your mother more than mine // // But for now jus
He cannot see // // The sea // // And
yet he knows // // It cannot be // // Less than close by.  // //
// As if my veins weren’t pumping acid
yet , // // I carry on, as though I’m craving more.  // // My shoes ha
// // your body is so familiar // //
yet I have never known you before.  // // I could stay a hundred years
ine-wrought craft // // and skill, and
yet I never thought you deft // // enough to use so delicate a dial. 
nd custom are no friend of ours.  // //
Yet in determination progress flowers— // // An open habit jointly st
auty induced in smears of paint.  // //
Yet in this well-formed image, I’m confirmed.  // // Your mind, your h
You have not turned to stone // // and
yet it is as stone // // that we must show you outward // // to the
/ // the world with dittoed offspring. 
Yet it will // // occasionally not breed true.  Now strife: // // the
The lows into dry soil.  My path has not
yet led // // In one direction or the other, but I see a turn // //
// // I should have danced by now, and
yet // // Legs, faltering, when I see you // // And her in that embr
Did you bury her
yet ?  // // // // Listen, kid: are you, or are you not, // // The b
// Feeling much too small, // // And
yet , // // Much too large to fit inside your head.  // // You want to
ent, // // and all the not-quite-never-
yet notes // // will be burnt to the sound of a piped lament.  // //
y keen.  // // A dance, hypnotic; long,
yet savour it // // The leaves are moved, their path unbroken now //
pat the pips, for they could choke you,
yet // // She imagined swallowing them, and her tongue, // // Thinki
/ // And he has some years left in him
yet .  // // This man, at least, has nothing to be ashamed about.  // /
be the waste fate does discard.  // //
Yet , time allowed, what seems fine chance will be // // And, likewise
re a million pages, // // Of knowledge
yet to be explored, // // I crave to be equal to your wisdom, // //
ervision faces // // seem too near—and
yet too far.  // //
// // Served iambic, al dente, but as
yet unsigned.  // // Will my new friend accept that I mix with you lot
med // // So pure and free, and // //
Yet we deemed // // It far beyond the realm // // Of serfs, and so k
e had, // // But couldn’t hold.  // //
Yet , when I stare into reality // // I see a blank white sheet, and w
the exit, // // Discover that we might
yet wreck their brexit.  // //
ot kill // // another day.”  // // And
yet you stay // // inside my head, and take away my will // // to fi
// // from plastic tubs // // feeding
yew // // crooked elbow // // no gravestones // // poor yew transpl
yew needs dried blood in spring // // blood ancestry // // phantoms
elbow // // no gravestones // // poor
yew transplanted // // wide-lipped pots // // ornamental // // shap
Before the best that Europe’s vineyards
yield , // // And all the fruits of forest, farm, and field // // Are
// // Serenading us among our garden’s
yields , // // When flying to their messy, tree-top nests, // // Sett
t?  // // It’s like how I don’t enjoy a
yoga class until my knees are at my ears, // // and I feel like if I
d rise and fall, // // So why does New
York City from the heavens look so flat?  // // And why do all the nam
rely be a sin.  // // Maybe the new New
Yorkers were just simply overcome; // // This thirteen-and-a-half mil
/ Thank God for the paper crown.  // //
Young and old.  // // It hides my nephew’s eyes.  // // God bless us,
ambled up, toecurling-wise and like two
young // // Eves, in a flurry of speckled limbs lobbed apples her way
was a bullet, stray.  // // There was a
young man writhing in the splinters of the shattered window pane.  //
se of the quiet couples and the wistful
young mothers     to the surprise of the small boy playing in the stre
I’ve noticed: // // an old one dies, a
young one stumbles mumbling onto the stage.  // // There will come a t
in robber crabs, // // But still their
young steal shells to hide in—is this the poem?  // // The smallest ma
, // // That genius is destined to die
young , // // That you must expire like Shelley, // // Or the fire in
/ // My grandad tended to old men when
young , // // The kind who’d spent a lifetime in the pit // // And co
nts, that define your life.  // // Your
young voice brought old words to life, // // age only antique, frailt
w generations play.  Then dared // // A
young voice call: ‘who’s that?’ and no-one knew.  // // You joined rel
rom its laden boughs.  // // We were so
young when we smoothed the bark with our feet // // Firm in convictio
ble— // // Horrified by the naïveté of
younger affirmations:  // // I am in control of my desires // // I am
the farm-wife, with clippings from the
youngest ewe, // // who cursed as the basket spills in sticky clay //
“bland,” // // But, full of energy and
youth , I choose // // Our dialect, sweet sister of our land.  // // O
suppressing the truth—so condemning our
youth // // To be fed to that Cretan abuser.  // // I’m a man at his
w way // // Handfast; we unscroll your
youth // // When ash-keyed branches dipped and prayed // // Not to h
uous Darwin, the natty Disraeli.  // //
Youth wins, // // Confines the noble beard to a // // Woolly-jumpere
l in a burning crucible.  // // The cat
yowls , and it all comes // // Beautifully crashing down, // // Life
f xx is aa and the second derivative of
yy is -gg.  // // Those who did manage to solve the early parts of the